Writing is one of the many ways that people can express their feelings, ideas, and just anything random that comes to mind. If any of you know me, I love to write. Sometimes I write for fun and/or for school(but we won't go there quite yet), but majority of the time it is to clear my mind...Today, it is definitely to clear my mind, and there is a lot going on... Have you ever felt like you are on a never ending Marry-Go-Round and it is going faster and faster? And you feel like you are never going to stop? Well, let me tell you, that is how my life is at this current moment, a never ending Marry-Go-Round. I am stressed to the max, but I am taking some time to reflect on these last couple months and take some time to share some of the amazing things God is doing in my life. I am almost halfway through my second semester in college. Woah...did I really say that? I feel like it was just yesterday that I was picking out my first dress for my very first high school dance and deciding whether or not I should talk to that boy sitting next to me? The idiomatic saying Time Flies is completely 100% applicable and accurate in my life. You never really grasp time until after it is gone. College life is both wonderful and pain-stakingly hard. I love it and hate it at the same time. I live in a great-Christian community, and my relationship with God, my family, and my friends have grown tremendously. I have learned so much that it would be hard to truly explain the details of everything. As many of you know, I love to tell stories so much to the extent that I will tell them over and over again even if it is completely stupid and/or random. But I need to tell everyone about this story that has been on my heart recently. Everyday I look at this picture of this little boy (I will use the fake name Lucas for his protection) from Guatemala. I met him last year when I worked in an orphanage. Let me tell you, he was the cutest/most energetic three year old that I have ever met. Lucas would smile and laugh like it was the best day in his life. Over the short time that I was there, I had the best time with this kid. He had this joy in him that I have never seen before, and he is 15 years younger than me, speaks a different language than me, and lives in an orphanage. Completely different lives, but I just loved seeing his pure joy. I thought his situations were rough and unfair, which they are, but he has this incredible joy in him. Here at IWU, I get to learn about Jesus 5+ times a week. What could be better than that? We have been talking about having peace with God, loving God, and how our relationship with God greatly affects relationships with others. It has really made me examine my relationship with God. How can I have patience with others, when I don't have patience to wait for what God has in store for me? How can I have peace with others, if I am not at peace with God? How can I love others, if I don't truly love God with all my heart, mind, soul, and strength? How can I live my day-to-day life, if I don't appreciate that God gave up His Son's so we could have ours? We have a BIG God who is mighty to save. Hallelujah! He reigns forever! I am doing great, and God is so good. Craving Him makes this whole college thing less stressful. I have had less anxiety and stress that I have ever had during school. As you guys probably know, I am a Nursing/Spanish major, and God has been tugging on my heart for mission work. I don’t really know what that entails just quite yet, but I am ready to go where He leads me. The first time I really felt God tugging at my heart was during the service when my pastor spoke about widows and orphans. I really thought God was calling me to go work and love on orphans, so that is what I did. That wonderful opportunity of going to Guatemala last spring has changed my view on everything. I thought when I would come back that I would feel accomplished because I successfully listened to what God wanted me to do. Yet, I feel like He is still tugging at me to continue loving on the orphans, the poor, and the widows. He isn’t finished with me yet. The topic on orphans is coming up everywhere I go: in discussions, in class, and even in this Summit and chapel. I keep asking God what can I do because I am a broke, single college student. This week I realized if it is His will, then I will have everything that I need. So in those moments where I want to pull my hair out and scream at the top of my lungs, I realize that God is with me because He is always with me. I sometimes forget. I look at that picture during these and ask me where is that smile and energy of that sweet little three year old. If he can be that happy, I can too. So that is it for this time… Stay tuned for next time. You are loved!
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